Inadequacy
I am tired of feeling so inadequate lately, and I’ve decided that the best way to remedy this is to not be inadequate anymore. To spend less time passively wasting my time. Admittedly, since I don’t watch TV, ever, it might be harder for me than for lots of other people to figure out where I can stop wasting time. Reading stuff on the Internet and not posting anything myself is a giant time-suck, though. So posting a bit here and elsewhere is a good first step. Although I have always resisted the notion that it is absolutely necessary to walk before you can run, it occurs to me that it might be refreshing to start off walking for a change, rather than rushing headlong into things as I usually do.
This means that my plan to clean my apartment can wait until the new year, of course. I wouldn’t want to overextend myself. I hate posting emoticons in blog entries, but I have to admit that a winking smiley face would not be out of place right here.
December 28th, 2008 at 4:58 am
Hey Polly,
The poster formerly known as Luckymud here. Sorry for disappearing so long ago. I took down my site 1.5 years ago because I figured I was getting better and dwelling on the subject might make it worse. Now I’m feeling much less stable and… well, I’m glad to see that you reached 8 years and that you’re taking care of yourself. Best wishes for the new year.
January 19th, 2009 at 1:59 am
I’m really glad to hear from you again, although I’m sad that you’re feeling less stable.