I’ve been having a rough week. This used to be de rigeur for me, but now that I’m so stable most of the time and don’t have random severe mood swings caused by nothing whatsoever, I tend to forget that I can still have major mood swings triggered by physical things such as my sleep schedule being all messed up. Which it is right now. I try to keep a much more regular sleep schedule than I used to, because I know how important it is to my mental health. Overall, it works out pretty well… but no matter how hard I try, it doesn’t work all the time.

So now there is insomnia leading to rapid-fire mood swings, and even though it’s not nearly as bad as it used to be a few years ago, I still find it disturbing. I find it disturbing simply because I’m not used to it anymore. I didn’t used to have a normal baseline mood. Now that I do have one, it’s kind of freaky to watch myself deviate from it. I’m not even worried that things will get worse; I’m really not. I know I’ve got everything under control. It’s just unsettling to be going along for a while not having to try particularly hard to keep everything under control, and then all of a sudden having to work at it again.

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