Where the buffalo roam
After several days back on my medication, my cognitive functioning is finally better. I am able to read books, I am not constantly forgetting things, and I’m not confused about what time or day it is.
I remembered to put the bathmat back in the tub after I took a bath, which I don’t think I have ever done since I moved in with my boyfriend, despite the fact that he reminds me to pretty much every day. I remembered to water the plant. Using these things as proof of my cognitive functioning seems kind of lame, and reminds me of a part in Anne Sexton’s poem “Hurry Up Please It’s Time.”
Interrogator:
What can you say of your last seven days?Anne:
They were tired.Interrogator:
One day is enough to perfect a man.Anne:
I watered and fed the plant.
Although my last seven days were not particularly tired, I have been working extra hours lately, which is vaguely annoying even though I really need the money. Tired in general? No. Tired of working? Un peu.
I wish that I had been a bit more with-it the last time my boyfriend and I went grocery shopping, because today I opened the freezer door and was very surprised to see a box of Thick & Juicy Bison Burgers inside. I kid you not. Wow, I guess I wasn’t paying any attention at all to what he was putting in the cart. Not that I’m necessarily saying there’s something wrong with bison burgers, not ever having tried one before, but I can’t believe I didn’t even notice that we had acquired them.
June 5th, 2007 at 5:41 pm
oh ive had one and i dont like them. i hate it when i cant think straight too. and you are right its not always about being tired. for me its like i cannot form a thought, let alone an end result. then when that goes away, its like a motor turned off in my head. so im thinking its a cognitive thing that is mania related? also things that are typically easy–like wrapping a present for example–takes enormous effort, and takes me triple the time. good luck w the bison burgers
June 5th, 2007 at 9:51 pm
I think the most annoying thing is when you’re trying to say something and then can’t think of the right word. For me, life is often like that — everything’s right on the tip of my tongue, but I just can’t grasp it. At least I don’t have to carry a thesaurus around anymore!
June 6th, 2007 at 11:06 am
Glad your meds are squared away again and that your brain came back! That’s really funny about the bison burgers.
June 6th, 2007 at 6:28 pm
Bison burgers taste pretty much like beef except they’re lower in fat. Frankly the fat makes a burger taste good. I stay away from burgers in general.
June 6th, 2007 at 6:43 pm
hmm…I left this already…don’t know if it will show up again.
I’ve eaten bison burgers and they taste pretty much like beef. Beef has more fat and therefore they taste better! I stay away from burgers in general.
June 7th, 2007 at 10:18 am
Polly are you moderating comments? These two comments took over night to show up? But I got no message of moderation??
June 9th, 2007 at 1:12 am
Polly,
Personally, I think it’s a sign of wellness to know that the thought of Bison burger is yech! I keep on thinking of how these great photographs of Bison in the old west or even in San Francisco (somehow I remember this from a tour of Golden Gate Park).
Susan
June 12th, 2007 at 11:27 am
Gianna, for some reason my spam-catcher thing keeps thinking your comments are spam, although I have no idea why. I’ve got to remember to check my spam queue more often.